"Hauntingly beautiful soundscape lush & rich with emotion. An exquisite tapestry woven with threads of sorrow & joy, lust & enchantment, sin & redemption, pleasure & pain. In a trance like state I feel myself slip under this warm inviting blanket from which I never want to leave." ~ Bianca Olson
While attending a wedding in St. Petersberg, Esza had a chance meeting that would change her career and life. As the wedding guests danced their way into oblivion, Esza found herself talking to the only other sober person at the party—Paul Freegard. Paul had produced Depeche Mode and was currently living in Martin Gore's house. Kaye says, "I had the opportunity to go to London and work on my music with Paul, and that's one of the big turning points of my life."
They worked together to create Esza's debut EP I Want To Die Loving You. Three of the four songs they worked on Esza had just written at Burning Man and the marriage of London and the US Southwest desert began. The results are a dark, electronic blend of lush landscapes with some of the best synth sounds to be found in London. Flavors of Depeche Mode and Siouxsie Sioux are everywhere to be found.
In the uptempo track, This Body, Esza pleads for an answer to the question: what happens when you want to share your body outside of a committed relationship? Life's lessons for the soul are acted out on flesh's stage, where the fallout can often be messy. In the slow, winding track full of desert imagery, My Miracle, Esza explores martyrdom, raising questions of life, death, and the boundaries of sacrifice. Our love for another raises us into the realm of spirit, where sacrifice is natural and common. But we don't have the power to save anyone else—each person has to make their own choice.
The third deeply dark and beautiful Freegard track, Queen of Alone came to Esza in a dream, full of medieval and haunting imagery. The fear of solitude is ultimate. We fear being left alone in the castle to face ourselves. To look for comfort outside of ourselves only brings co-dependency. And whoever said a castle is comfortable.
And the final track Night Child only came into its own later in Los Angeles. While out gigging the new album, Esza ran into Bruce Somers of the LA band KidneyThieves. Esza was a big fan of the band and they struck up a relationship. Soon thereafter, Bruce, a sound shaping prodigy and world class drummer, loaned his talents to the act, working on the live show and re-producing Night Child for live performance. In this uptempo track of abandon, Esza laughs at the often pointless activity of our day and embraces letting loose in night's welcoming and mischievous calm.
Esza says: "This was the most remarkable project from beginning to end. A real birth. I cannot believe how blessed I was to create my first real album with Paul. And then to meet such a talent as Bruce—its like everything came full circle". And the album does bring us right back to the beginning, to the self that would gladly die to keep love alive.